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Perplexities of the Heart
Have you ever felt confused? Have you ever felt that you do not know what the person you really like feel towards you?
You feel that sometimes you are of much value to him/her, and then all of a sudden you are not. There are times that you are sure about his/her feelings towards you then suddenly you do not know...
He/she might have told you he/she loved you or he/she liked you very much but you don't quite believe it because you don't completely see that it is true. You would actually wish that there are more signs that will make you say that he/she really meant what he/she said...
Why is it sometimes it feels right then, afterwards it is not?
Sometimes you feel it is too fast and wrong but it also feels right at the same time. That even if you wanted to stop everything and rewind it to redo everything right, you still wouldn't exchange that moment to anything of great value because you know that deep down inside you, it is what you really want...
Sometimes you also feel that you are waiting for nothing... waiting to be hurt. Someone who left herself/himself at the mercy of someone who is unsure of his/her own feelings...
You have thought and considered of making him/her feel that you are not always waiting. But you are afraid to give him/her up because when that happens it might be the time and everything was already too late for both of you.
There maybe times that you might have wished for someone or something to come that will shake him/her up or that will make it clearer for you on whatever you are in...
It might feel love at the wrong time or wrong setup or wrong arrangement or just plain wrong love but still when you think about it, you are afraid to give him/her up... you are afraid to lose whatever people call that something that each one of us has been looking for throughout our entire lives... that something that most will exchange their wealth for... that something that some people would die for... that something that everyone of us has been aching to find and have...
You hope you will see the light soon, you hope you can stop whatever it is you're feeling towards that person because the more you spend time with him/her, the deeper you get hurt.
It is like quicksand... yeah, quicksand...the more time you spend alone with him/her, the more you get hurt... You feel you are on the clouds for the first few moments but the sting lingers afterwards...
You are torn between letting him/her go and holding on. When you let him/her go, it will be hard at first but the pain will ease, but when you do that, you might be letting something beautiful go... if you hold on, you are burying yourself more into hurt and pain that will be unbearable. You are afraid that if you hold on longer and get hurt eventually, you might break into pieces that will be difficult to stand up afterwards...
You sometimes think if whatever you call this is worth all the pain and hurt that you will have afterwards...
Some people call this thing "love,” and now you wonder why didn't anyone told you that it would be this hard and that it brings that kind of feeling that you are having difficulty breathing...
You may also wonder that "love" is supposed to make you happy and make you smile even nobody is around but suddenly it is not, and now you feel confused... is it still love?
Would you accept the statement people say that when you "love," happiness and pain comes hand in hand? Would you still consider it? Maybe...
(Sigh!) you wish you knew what to do, you wish things would be more favorable to you and would not leave you hanging and not knowing where you stand. You wish you could will whatever it is you want to happen.
You wish everything will be in its place before you get tired of waiting...Before you decide to let him/her go...
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